4 August, 2009

This year as I embark upon my birthday awareness and celebration, I get the added bonus of acknowledging today as being the birthday of My/Our President Obama. Of course, it was his birthday last year on this day but I didn't know it so it didn't count...for me. And isn't that how life works anyway? Where we place our attention and energy is what matters and this year, I celebrate Barack Obama being a Leo, too.

I am watching myself observe mySelf this birthday.

Last year, as I approached my birthday, I knew I was coming up on the one year anniversary of my birthday without My Mom; and additionally, the anniversary of her death on the 7th. I treated myself delicately around that and was also fairly preoccupied getting ready to move to Chico a few weeks. This year, I am now in Chico and my mother's been gone two years.

Do I feel older this year? Yes, dammit.
Do I feel wiser this year? Yes, gratefully.
Do I feel anything differently? Yes, about a lot of things in a lot of different ways.

Tonight, feels more like a new year's eve than usual. Yes, we Leos start celebrating almost as soon as the astrological sign moves out of Cancer and into our spotlight; but this time, I am feeling more of a spiritual hunger for preparedness of my Personal New Year. If there was time, I might do a new vision board or a list of intentions and goals, along with my long gratitude list.

I do have melancholy moments of wanting my mom to be around to share this year with me to celebrate being the Pastor in Chico and my book being published and our new kitten and this run-on sentence that I don't want to stop because it means she really isn't here with me...

However, I do have with me great friends and an amazing, loving and precious family --Don, Jezebelle and Beau--who understand (tolerate?) my eccentricities, my maturity (age?) and my joy. I am blessed and I know it, thank you very much.

Ahhhhh, life is good.