Lunacy

Did you know that "looney tunes" is in the dictionary now? In addition to being my favorite sets of cartoons; it refers to the adjective describing the wacky state of things. 'Looney', of course, has to do with the Latin "lunar" for moon which often refers to cycles of emotional states based on the pull of the moon on the ocean.

We had a lunar eclipse at 6:01 p.m PST. I was unable to see it at the outset but about a 1/2 hour into it, I was able to watch the clouds cover over the full moon. Awesome.
It might also give rise to why my emotions were so overt today.

An Eric Clapton song playing in Starbucks and a gentle inquiry allowed me to tap into some further spills of grief. I thought it was complete until later in the day, something else triggered me and dammit, I just flat out miss my mom and that has colored so many other things.

It was the harsh realization that there is no one else left in my blood family that was present at my birth or my graduation or my stage debut. Being an only child did have it's perks as a kid, but I think it is pales as one grows older. There is no sibling to call and ask if they remember the time we . . . . No parents or grandparents; and no children of my own. No wonder I always created external families as I grew up. I always belonged to a theatre company; and that was later replaced by a church community. It has been starkly different -- a type of void-- for over a year; and there has been nothing to fill that gap. Happily, gratefully, I have filled the personal family gap when I married Don.
(See? I look on the bright side even in the middle of a PityParty.)

Things should heat up this week with the Obama-Clinton debate on television tonight; and the Academy Awards on Sunday. Sad to say, this is the first year where I have not stayed au courant with the films up for nominations. Don and I have only seen a few of the contenders. Yet, I am glad the WGA strike was settled; and that other looney tune, Jon Stewart will once again, be the host.

May I have the envelope, please?